When we were finished there, we decided to go for a walk in a park next to the Valley Zoo. We walked over the river on a pedestrian bridge and that brought us into Hawralak(sp?) park. By chance, we came upon Emergency Preparedness Week. As we were walking over a grassy field, Tyler saw some helicopters and wow, was he ever excited! He started running toward them, yelling “helicopter! helicopter!” After he had a good look at the helicopters, he saw the firetrucks and called out “firetruck!” so we went there next. We saw those as well as the ambulances, army vehicles, and police vehicles. Bruce and I actually remembered the camera too, so we were able to get some nice pictures. Tyler was too scared to go in the vehicles, but we did get some nice pictures of him next to them. Before we saw the trucks, Tyler had played for a little bit in the playground at the park and had a lot of fun there. As we were leaving, Tyler looked back and saw the helicopters again so started running across the field to see them again. We tried the whole “ok, bye” trick, but he just said “bye” and kept going! I ended up having to bring him back. He cried for a few seconds, but then I asked him to catch his dad, and he was ok again, trying to chase Bruce.

 When we left the park, we drove to the Bonnie Doon mall where the fair was set up in the parking lot. Tyler got on four rides and had a great time…although he was already wore out from our previous walk. He absolutely loved the slide there. He also had great fun in the bouncy castle, although he did more running back and forth than jumping, lol. He still had fun, though, and that’s what counts.

 I ended up forgetting to put sunscreen on until after we were out for around three or four hours and I got a really bad burn. When we got home, I was really feeling it and I ended up feeling a little sick because of it. I’m going through that annoying itchy-skin phase now on my arms. At least that means the burn is going away, so hopefully that happens soon on my back and shoulders, where the burn was the worst. I have dry skin cream, and that’s been helping quite a bit with my burn. Oh well, we all had a wonderful day and that’s the important thing.

Sometime Friday, we saw the paramedics going to our neighbours place and heard a child screaming. Not to long after, we found out that our neighbour’s 2 year old son fell out their window (they’re on the second storey). He landed on a grassy hill and rolled into the parking lot. Thankfully he wasn’t seriously harmed - just some bumps and bruises.

Yesterday, Bruce made me breakfast in bed. I knew he was downstairs making it, and just after he started I was busting to use the bathroom, but I figured he wouldn’t be long so I tried holding it. I didn’t know though, that he was making potatoe pancakes so he had a long ways to go, and I ended up having to go after about 1h of waiting, lol. I didn’t want him to know that I was awake and knew that he was making me breakfast, but I couldn’t wait any longer. We laughed about that when he did bring my breakfast up.

After getting up and on the go, we brought Tyler to a nearby playground. From there, we went to the store and picked up a few things. We had Jiggs Dinner for supper and decided to pick up a pie for dessert. We had a wonderful, relaxing day to end the weekend and we all really enjoyed ourselves.

 I was able to get to my meeting yesterday morning. It was wonderful…we learned about applying bible principles to marriage and about being yielding in marriage. I really enjoyed it an can’t wait to go again. I actually got the courage to speak up and some of my friends there told me that I made a good point. I’m not going to be able to go again for another month. Over the summer, I’ll begin by going once a month, and eventually work my way up to once a week. We left for the zoo when I got back, and we didn’t leave there until they gave the announcement that they were closing (4:00pm) I’m glad that I packed snacks, because the ice cream we all had wasn’t enough by the time we left and everyone was hungry again. I have to start remembering to do that everytime we go places like that. We promised Kayla that we will take her somewhere next week so she can fly her kite, if the weather allows. She bought it a few weeks ago and hasn’t had a chance to fly it once yet, and she was upset about that a little yesterday because it was a nice, windy day - perfect for flying kite. We would have taken her yesterday but we didn’t have time because we went to the zoo instead. I’m sure they’ll be over to our place again sometime soon.

 Well, Bruce is home sick this morning because he has a sour stomach. I’m not surprised because it was pretty sour yesterday and especially last night. He was asleep so I phoned the reception desk where he works and told her that he won’t be in today. I had some difficulty with the lady working there and she informed me that she will not be relaying the message for me because I have to hold and talk to his supervisor myself. I didn’t have time to hold at that paticular moment because my first dhk was about to arrive and I wasn’t ready yet, so Bruce said not to worry about it.

 I ended up catching Tyler’s illness. I didn’t notice it much this morning when I woke up, but within the first hour my nose started getting stuffy & runny, my eyes are sore, dry throat, etc. I can feel some pressure in my head, but there’s no headache yet. I was talking to my friend this morning and she said that she didn’t realize it was me at first because my voice sounds different. Hopefully I don’t end up feeling as bad as Tyler - and hopefully Tyler ends up feeling a lot better today - because we have a lot of things planned for this weekend. I’m hoping to make it to “church” on Sunday, but I won’t be able to go if I’m too sick. That will make three weeks in a row that I had to post pone going for one reason or another.

 I’m doing better with stress problems. I’m reading a book called “the multiple orgasmic woman” which places great emphasis on stress & other factors affecting pleasure in sex. It deals with Taoist teaching - especially dealing with the chi. I believe there are some tai chi practices in this book, so I’m making sure to read a little every night. Some things seem a little silly to me, but I’m keeping my mind open because these techniques have been perfected over centuries so there must be something to at least the basic concepts, even if I personally don’t agree with the reasoning behind everything. I just got to a section about how emotions can affect different organs and ways to help these organs through paticular types of meditation. There are still things that Western science doesn’t understand so I’m going to keep an open mind and try these exercises. I’ve already found other things in this book quite helpful.

 I’m trying to figure out stress triggors and work on either eliminating them, changing them, or changing my response to them - whichever may apply to each situation. For example, the mess in our bedroom was a cause of stress for me and Bruce. Yesterday during nap time, I took the opportunity and completely cleaned the room. Laundry left over that needs to be folded & put away is a big stress for me too, so I made sure to put away every clean piece of clothes as I came across them, instead of throwing them all in a pile and dealing with them at another time. I even ended up having time to fold and put away the clothes that was hung up, and when Tyler woke up, I put his clothes away in his dresser instead of doing my usual - which is to leave them in the basket. So, I eliminated the stress associated with the mess in my bedroom by cleaning the room. I also find myself stressed a little because a lot of housework piles up, so (on top of Bruce helping) I decided to take time during nap (after taking time for myself and dhkAn) to do some housework that I have trouble getting done. I’ve been able to keep on top of things better, it’s helping with my stress in that regard, and I find I have more energy while playing with the kids in the afternoon because I’m keeping busy before they wake up.

I have also decided to slack up a little and relax more when it comes to the children I care for, like how it used to be when I first opened. I found that the kids began screaming more and it was causing me stress because it started within 1/2h of their arrival. I sat down and thought about my current approach compared to before when they weren’t screaming, and I realized that I used to use redirection and positive reinforcement when they followed my redirection. Not stressful for me or the dhk’s. Lately, I have just been saying “no screaming” “keep it down” etc. which is really keeping things negative and increasing my stress to the situation. I have gone back to my redirection “Lets do *this* instead. That’s right! Thank you” This isn’t only helping keep things positive for the children, but also for myself.

 Bruce heard back from CWB and he has been approved to write his Level 1 ASME B31.3 in Quality Control. He phoned on his break this morning and scheduled a date, so we (especially he) have a lot of work studying. I am going to help as much as possible. Having his level 1 gives better opportunities and may open some doors for him to progress in his trade. I hope everything works out for him. I havn’t seen him this happy in a while. It really means a lot to me to see him happy again.

 I think that I have most of the big stressors worked out - or in the process of being worked out. I find that scheduling time to study the bible twice a day when the children aren’t around is very helpful as well. I don’t mean that simply reading unrelated topics in the bible is what I find helpful, but searching for specific topics that are covered in the bible and concentrating on bible principles and teachings as it relates to the difficulties I am going through is what I find helpful. With help, I know where to look and how to find the teachings I am searching for, and by opening my heart and applying these teachings to my life in a genuine, loving way is helping me greatly. There were so many scriptures before that just didn’t make sense to me, but they touch my heart now that I really understand them. I still have difficulties and stresses. My studies are not removing all my problems by any means, but I do find them helpful.

 We’re hoping to go back to that playground again today. I wish I could get something like a portable potty with a disposable cup, so when he has to pee and we are not around a bathroom, I could take that out, let him pee, and throw out the insert. We are going to pick up a collapsable insert to put over the toilet for when we are out and around, but that wouldn’t do anything if we are at a place where there are no toilets.

That’s all from me for now. I just heard Tyler wake up.

I’m so glad my friend and her boyfriend were able to find another place to live. They were living with his brother and after what I heard about him - combined with what he was doing during the move - I’m so glad she is able to get away from him. The entire time we were there, he was in his room with his girlfriend, smoking drugs. That’s a big reason why I got out of there asap with the kids and didn’t go back. He was well aware that we would be coming with three children, but he still did that and the apartment stunk of drugs. I tried putting a towel under his door, but that didn’t do anything.

Anyway, back to our nice day. When we were at the playground, Tyler saw a little boy driving along the sidewalk in a motorized “jeep” (just outside the fence) and he lost it, lol! He ran to the field next to the playground and followed the little boy on his side of the fence. The boy was able to go slightly faster in his jeep than what Tyler could run on the grass, so Tyler kept calling out “wait! wait!” It was soooo cute. I wish I had the camera on me to video it. He saw someone flying a kite for the first time and was very interested in that, too.

 When we went home, we had a nice, relaxing evening. Tyler fell asleep in the car while we brought his cousins back. He was exhausted and had a great night sleep last night. He’s still asleep now.

 The only bad thing that happened over the weekend was what I heard last night through the bathroom window while getting ready for bed. I heard a woman angrily say “you don’t say no to me” I’m a bit of a nosey person and thought an argument was about to break out between her and her spouse, and I was wondering what her spouse said ‘no’ to for her to become so angry, so I listened. For a short moment, I thought I could hear something low, but I’m not positive about that. I was wondering why her spouse didn’t immediately reply, when I heard a low “thump” followed by what I feel sounded like a blood-curdling scream coming from a little girl. I heard another “thump” followed by the same scream, and then once more. Since I didn’t see anything, I don’t know exactly what happened. If I had to describe what the thump sounded like, it mostly reminded me of the sound I have heard on tv & movies when someone is hit in the back with a closed fist. I keep hoping I didn’t actually hear a child being struck, but I don’t see how it could have been anything else. I decided to phone 911 because I didn’t feel right just sitting back and not doing anything. I explained what I heard to the officer on the phone and made it clear that I understand he can’t send someone out since I didn’t know exactly where it was coming from, but I wanted it to at least be recorded on a file that I made the call in case something else happens. I have an idea who it may be, but I don’t want to jump to conclusions. I have seen a woman with a little girl walking back and forth the walkway below where I live -which is in the same general area where I heard the commotion last night. The woman always seems to be short with the little girl and it isn’t uncommon to hear her yell and/or scream at her for little things. I’m going to try and keep my eyes & ears open for the next while in hopes of hearing or seeing enough to give police something to go on.

 I’m not sure if dhkR is coming today or not. Last week his mom said that he isn’t because today is his birthday, but yesterday at pick up I forgot about that and said something about drop off today that she agreed to. I’m not sure if she just forgot herself, I was mistaken about the day he won’t be in care, or if she decided to bring him anyway. Oh well, I’ll find out if they don’t arrive at their usual time.

 Her other son (D) comes for about 1h after school on Mondays. He said that he suddenly got sick 20 minutes before the last bell…to the point that he had to leave the classroom. I let him lie on the couch and relax, with the light off and curtain closed. The other kids wouldn’t leave him alone, so I blocked off the living room to seperate him from us, and we played there until he was picked up. Just before he was picked up, I suddenly started feeling sick and had to run to the bathroom a couple of times. Bruce was sick this morning, as well. I started feeling better around when I went to bed, but I woke up around 5:00 this morning feeling bad and couldn’t get back to sleep, so I got up at 6:30. Oh well, getting up and on the go was helpful, so I managed to muster up the energy to shovel a path from my patio door to the gate in my backyard. The snow is so thick in my backyard that I was concerned we wouldn’t be able to access the gate if there was an emergency and we couldn’t get to the front door. I’m glad that I just wrote about that, because it reminded me that I forgot to re-lock the back gate. I have to remember to ask Bruce if he opened the lock yesterday for any reason. Every time after I lock it again, I put all the numbers back on zero, but two of them were on a different number this morning.

 Around the end of last winter, someone stole our shovel out of our backyard. Since it was near the end of winter, we didn’t bother with getting another one. It’s a good thing I was shoveling early this morning, because I can imagine that I must have looked silly shoveling the snow with a dust pan

All of this snow reminds me of living back in Newfoundland. I remember snow used to blow in front of the door of our old basement apartment, and it got to be so thick some days that we had to scoop it out with a bucket & a bowl and throw it in the bathtub, just so we could get space to stand outside the door and begin shoveling. That was a really nice apartment…it was our first place together. Our landlord lived above us and they were really nice. They even let us get a cat (Sparkles, the cat we have now) even though when we originally moved in we were told “no pets allowed” I remember the landlord’s cat used to look in our windows at Sparkles. I remember some of the dives we went to before we found the place where we lived! I’ll always remember our little basement apartment with fondness…and our first car; a Chevy Cavalier.

 I have to stop now. dhkR just arrived. It turns out I was mistaken about the date that he won’t be coming.

 Well anyway, today is Bruce’s birthday. He turned 29 today. We went out yesterday to Outback Steakhouse for supper while his sister babysat for us. We popped into Tim Hortons after for something to drink. It was a wonderful day and we had a great time. When we got back to his sister’s, they all had some cake for him, sung him “Happy Birthday” and had a couple of gifts for him. We stayed there for a while and then left late to come home. Tyler was really cute. When his cousins went to the room to watch tv, he went with them. When I checked on him, he was lid down in bed under the blanket between Kaitlyn and Kayla. I thought that looked so cute and I wish I had my camera with me to take a picture of that.

 I’m so glad that Bruce, Tyler & I are starting to get out more in the evenings. It’s so nice…we eat supper, clean up, and then go for a walk for about an hour or sometimes more. When we come back, the place isn’t in a mess from Tyler playing around - and the supper dishes are already done - so I don’t have as much housework to do before bed. Because of this, I decided to start working on my cross stitch again. I have a small lighthouse scene that I didn’t finish so I’m working on that now. When that one is done, I have a large one to do. I’m not going to be able to dedicate as much time to my cross stitch now as I used to, so I think the large lighthouse is going to take at least six months, if not more because it’s the biggest and most complicated cross stitch I’ve picked up. When I finish the little lighthouse, we’re buying a frame and sending it to Bruce’s parents as a thank you to his mother for all her help and support with the difficult times we have gone through over the past two & a half years. I don’t know what would have happened if it wasn’t for her.

 I commented to Bruce that I must have been working on this current cross stitch when I had ppd and he told me that I was working on it but then took a sudden turn for the worse and stopped. I said that I figured something like that must have happened, because I didn’t care about much of anything when I had ppd and I showed that I didn’t care about that cross stitch because I had all the thread bundled up and knotted all together so that it took me two days just to seperate it and properly identify the correct colours. I have never done that with a cross stitch before…the first thing I do is typically label the colours and have them seperated & organized properly. I couldn’t believe what a mess they were in! Oh well, at least they are seperated properly now so I actually start working on it. I think it’s going to take me about  three or four weeks to finish this one, if I’m able to work on it a little every day. Bruce is pretty happy to see that I’m back into doing my crafts because I used to be so into it that I always had a cross stitch to do. I used to pick up a new one when I was almost finished the one I was working on so that there were no breaks between them. I remember doing an Eeyore blanket for Tyler when I was pregnant. I still have that blanket and when he gets older I can tell him that I did that for him.

I did some spring cleaning during quiet time yesterday and was able to get quite a bit done. There are only four cupboards left to do, and I have to get Bruce to haul out the fridge so I can clean behind there. I have to clean inside the fridge too, but that isn’t really part of spring cleaning because I do it so often. I rearranged some things on the counter too, so now there is easier access to the microwave and we have more counter space. I also finally admitted that my plant is not going to magically come back to life so I had the task of throwing that out and washing the pot. The next time we get a plant, we are buying a proper spray to put on it and I’m going to make sure it is sprayed each and every night.

 I feel bad for some of the things that happens to our cat, but a lot of them are her own fault because she never seems to learn her lesson. Sparkles has this big habit of sticking her head in the fridge. That wouldn’t be bad…but she waits until we are in the process of closing the door so she can rush over and quickly stick it in. We usually just push it closed while turning around, and she has gotten bopped in the head twice that I know of because if it. Now, I have to make sure and close it slowly because she comes out of nowhere! I thought she would have learned her lesson after the first smack she got from the door, but I guess not. A couple of days ago she was lid down on the wheels of the computer chair while Bruce was sat in it. We didn’t know she was there, until Bruce moved back to stand up and she jumped about six feet in the air, because he ran over the fur on her tail. Her reaction of jumping ripped a bunch of fur out. Poor thing…I gave her some cuddles after that and checked her tail to make sure she was ok. She hardly ever sits on the wheels of the chair so we didn’t know to expect her there…but that isn’t the first time a wheel rolled over some part of her. A while ago the same thing happened, but it was her paw that Bruce rolled over by accident.  Sometimes it just seems like she never learns her lesson…I don’t know what she would do if she lived in the wild if she doesn’t even know to stay away from a fridge door after it has hit her, twice. I don’t even know why she sticks her head in the fridge anyway. We don’t keep food in there for her.

 I’m also really excited because I’m going to ‘church’ again on Aug 27. Bruce is a little on the wire about my doing this - not because I’m going to church but because my religious belief are slightly different from his and this church that I found is one that properly reflects and matches with my beliefs. I understand his concern so I’m taking things slow at first…once a month to begin with and slowly working my way up to eventually attend once a week. I went once in March and I really enjoyed it so I can’t wait to go again this month. I mentioned about going this week but I didn’t realize it feel on April 20 which is Bruce’s birthday. I can’t believe he is going to be 29! I turned 27 last month…the big 30 is just around the corner for both of us. I remember mom really kicked up the “I’m getting old” talk at around 32, and that is only five years away for me. I don’t consider being in my thirties as being old, but mom thought she was old since she was in her early thirties, and she didn’t accept it until she turned 50, lol. She complained more about being old when she was in her thirties than she does now in her fifties, lol. I’m finding that I’m more relaxed and not so “on edge” when talking with her now. We’ve been talking everyday as well (except yesterday, but that’s because I was out most all evening)

 We had such a wonderful evening yesterday. After dhkAn was picked up we left to walk to Subway. It’s about a 20 minute walk. Tyler loves Subway. Take-out is pretty much off our menu now, so after being without Kentucky for quite a while, we went there a couple of weeks ago. When we went in we said to Tyler “do you want some Kentucky?” and he said “No. Subway” Even after we went in and ordered he was still complaining that he wanted Subway instead. We told him that he could have Subway after we had Kentucky, but once he found a fun place to sit in the restaurant where he could look out the window, he was happy to have Kentucky.

 Anyway, back to yesterday. Before we left, Tyler started saying on his own that he wanted Subway, so we told him that we would take him there, because we were planning on walking there anyway. It was a little windy so we put the wind breaker over his stroller. That was the first time we used it in a very long time and he thought it was fun. On our way back from Subway we stopped into a playground that we havn’t visited in a while (there are two others closer to our home) One of the slides was a spiral one completely contained and that was the first time he went down a covered slide. He loved it, but we could only let him go down twice because he was getting cold and shivering. I hadn’t come prepared at all and didn’t have a warm hat or gloves for him. At least he had a warm jacket. He was obviously still cold on the walk home, so I took off my jacket and put it over him…and he thanked me I didn’t realize it would get that cold, and when Bruce saw that I was also getting cold just in a t-shirt, he gave me his jacket and then started joking around “sure, you forget a blanket for Tyler so I have to be the cold one” He was just kidding and we laughed about it. We’re going for a lot more walks now that the nice weather is here, so during quiet time today I’m going to do up a travel bag for Tyler with diapers, a change of clothes, a blanket, a hat, & mitts. When the weather gets warmer, I’ll also include sunscreen. I’m so glad we’re going for walks almost daily now. It’s really helping with my stress level and I am feeling better overall. I know I get the kids outside everyday, but that’s not the same as going for a long, peaceful walk with my family

 Oh, Tyler just woke up and two dhk’s just arrived so I should stop for now.

 dhkN had a bit of a harder day yesterday than Monday. He’s two years old and yesterday was his third day in my care. He wanted something and didn’t seem to understand why he couldn’t have it. When he realized I wasn’t going to give in, he became hysterical with crying, yelling “mommy” and screaming frantically. I tried a few things but the thing that worked the best to help calm him down was to allow him to sit on the couch undisturbed. He began screaming “sippy” so I gave that to him and it helped a little. I went over to comfort him and offer reassuring words every now and again, and eventually he calmed down. Once he calmed down, he decided that he wanted a book that was on the floor, so started yelling “book!” I told him that if he wanted the book he could get down to get it, and he became hysterical again with the screaming on top of yelling “book! Book” I tried speaking politely, informing him that he could get down and get the book if he wanted it, but he kept pointing to it and then to me while he was screaming because he wanted me to pick it up and give it to him. I told him that if he wanted the book he had to get it himself because I wasn’t getting it for him. When I told him that, he stopped screaming and got it himself. He didn’t scream like that anymore, but there were three other times he expected me to get things for him when he was capable of getting them himself. When I told his mother about his screaming, she didn’t pay attention to me and kept making faces and winking at her son.

 Aside from that, dhkN seems to be doing pretty good. He does cry and scream for a few short moments at drop off - but it is much better than his first day when he screamed for 20 minutes. When his mother picks him up, he smiles & greets her, but he continues to play until I bring him over. Hopefully that means he is feeling comfortable being here. I think the main cause of upset is being seperated from his mother, and when he is over that initial upset he is typically fine. She said that he has never been in care before now and she is a SAHM, so he is with her most of the time. He is doing pretty good with sharing and taking turns. He doesn’t seem to understand some typical discipline approaches so I’m beginning a little “soft” with him and working up as he feels comfortable and understands what I mean. For example, yesterday he tried touching the buttons on my digital terminal so I asked him to stop. He didn’t, so I removed his hands and quickly explained that he is not to touch, & tried to distract him, but he went back to it again. Finally, I counted to three and when he still hadn’t stopped, I put him in time out for just one minute. He seemed to not understand what I was doing by counting to three, and had no idea what was going on when he was in time out. He kept trying to get down from the couch and seemed to be confused when I put him back. When he realized I wasn’t letting him down, he screamed a little and cried. By this point, though, the time out was over anyway. I think I’m going to cut his time outs down to 30 or 40 seconds to begin and slowly work up to 1 or 2 minutes. I don’t want to upset him to the point of crying…as long as I am able to get the point across to him that the reason I removed him from *this* was because he wasn’t suppose to be doing *that* and he doesn’t go back to it after, I’m happy. I’m still finding what discipline techniques work best for him. He’s only here for 3h twice a week, so it may take a little longer than usual. My goal is to maintain a happy, peaceful environment while still upholding the rules.

 dhkAn is starting to have a bit of a difficult time with the changes here (and at home). In March dhkB & dhkJ finished care. Then dhkR and dhkN began care this month. She is mixed about dhkR - sometimes she says that she likes him and other times that she doesn’t. She always says that she doesn’t like dhkN because of his crying and screaming. I try to be someone she can talk to about these things, and I try to point out positive things about dhkN & dhkR. I have gotten her to become more involved with the things that I do with dhkR and she likes that. This way I can still give her attention while doing important things like preparing dhkR’s formula. She has gotten a lot better since I have been getting her more involved. She has been going through some changes at home as well, so I have been trying to be someone she can talk with. We’ve been having a lot more conversations lately about things that have been bothering her. I’m glad she feels that she can open up to me. She has opened up to Bruce as well because she also feels comfortable with him. Tyler is finding the changes in the dayhome a little difficult as well. He has been seeking reassurance from me more often than usual when the other children are here.

 I found out on Monday that my bridesmaid dress as well as my bouquets are ready to be picked up. We’re going to get those things on Saturday…I can’t wait. My MOH is coming with us to try on the dress. I like the dress itself so hopefully it looks good on her. The colour looks like it will match well with the bouquets also. Now I can’t wait to get my wedding dress back from being taken in. Things are getting close now. I can’t believe that on May 2 there will only be three months left to our wedding. It’s still hard to believe that we are finally actually getting married. We have been engaged for six years and had to post pone three times. This time things are booked, deposits are paid, dresses are bought, and our parents have booked their flights, so it looks like we won’t be post poning.

 Bruce looks like he has been loosing weight, but it isn’t showing on the scales. One of the dayhome parents asked if he has lost weight. I think it looks like his face and stomach are getting smaller as well. He also wore a shirt yesterday that he hasn’t worn in a while because it is a little too tight. He commented that he thought he looks like he had lost some weight as well, but according to the scales he is staying exactly the same. Our scales are new and have been matching his weight according to his doctor, so we’re pretty sure there is nothing wrong with them. His doctor recently doubled his thyroid medication. When his thyroid was tested, he was told that it was pretty much dead and practically every calorie Bruce took in was stored. After being on medication for a month, his thyroid was tested again and his doctor decided to double it. Hopefully this will give him some assistance with his weight loss because no matter what he has been doing, his weight has been at a stand still for a while. He is a little upset that he will still be overweight for our wedding because he had always hoped to be smaller when we get married, but over all he is excited.

We were thinking of having our honeymoon at FantasyLand Hotel but his sisters were telling him of two seperate times they had issues there regarding the cleanliness of the room. We wouldn’t have thought much of it, but we did have a similar problem while we were there as well. Considering they were three seperate instances, we are thinking of going to a different hotel for our honeymoon instead. I’m not sure if we will or not yet though. Even though we did have that one problem, overall that was the best hotel visit I have ever had. I think Bruce would agree after some of the things we did in the hottub :blush: I think I won’t get into anymore detail than that