Well today is the day that I should be going to my cousins wedding in Wisconsin. In fact, I have the plane ticket confirmation sitting here in front of me. Yet here I am writing this on my home computer, while my baby is sleeping, my three-year old is playing, and my husband is out doing errands. Why? I think that I may be a little neurotic!
We have known about this coming wedding for well over a year. When first invited we were definitley going to go, but shortly after telling all the relatives back East that we (husband, daughter, myself) were coming, I found out that I was pregnant. This kind of put a wrench in our plans. I started to worry about the fact that the baby would only be 6 months old when October came around. Could I really leave baby with family for 6 days? Should we take baby with us? (not something either of us really wanted to do). Should we tell the relatives that we aren’t coming after all? We decided that we would wait to see how we felt at a later date. After all the wedding was still over a year away!
Four months after our son was born I was having one of those rough days….kids hadn’t been sleeping, eldest child was sick and cranky, I was getting REALLY cranky, and I felt like I needed to get away…..NOW!!! We booked the plane tickets to Wisconsin that night. I was very excited, for I haven’t been back to Wisconsin for over 12 years, and I was really looking forward to seeing everyone again.
Move ahead one month….husband and I took a three night get-away to Uclulet for his birthday. Although we had a great time, I missed the kids terribly while we were gone. The realization of our return was that I would not be able to be away from my children for six days. Once again we thought that maybe should just bring both of them with us. We actually did look into it, but there were too many reasons why it wasn’t going to work. Finally, one month before the wedding I broke the news to the rest of my family. Although, there were disappointments all around, they all said that they understood. In fact my wonderful Aunt (the mother of the bride) told me ”You are not neurotic, you are just a good Mommy!”.
Well good Mommy or not, it was the right thing to do at this point in our lives. Do I wish we were in Wisconsin right now…..Yes! Do I regret the decision of wasting $700 on un-used plane tickets…..believe it or not…..No!
