Well, I have to say I’ve given this quite a bit of thought and I find myself leaning more towards a midwife. Why? Because they provide so much more personal, one on one time you and the baby before and after delivery. Also, my sister had used a midwife with her second pregnancy and she had such a wonderful experience. I think its wonderful that Ontario is finally recognizing midwifery and allowing these women to practice.
My mother had wanted to use a midwife with her second pregnancy, but had opted for a Doula. The only thing different with that is the Doula cannot preform the delivery, the doctors had to step in - and they made a royal  mess of things.
 A midwife has all the same qualifications as a Obgyn but they are much more personal. They are there for you and devoted to only you throughout your labour. It just adds another layer of support and comfort. And since this is my first pregnancy, I need all the support and guidance that I can get :o) Â
 My boyfriend Gary had been on a mission when it comes to spreading the good news at the office. Since we both work together and very few people were aware of the fact that we were even dating posed a bit of a problem. However, it all seems to be going over quite smoothly. There were even a few comments along the lines of, “and this is supposed to come as s surprise?” lol. I guess we were a little bit transparent in a feelings for each other.
Oh well, I love my company and I love the people I work with. I knew it wasn’t going to be a negative response, but a part of me still hesitated. But there’s just something about Gary, you can’t help but like him and he definately knows how to talk to people in such a way that in the end they always end up agreeing with him. It’s been cute as well, seeing just how excited and attentive he’s getting.
 Last night I met up with a few of my girl friends, one of them is like an older sister to me and she just had her first baby so we were all talking about experiences and such, she and another new mommy at the table were giving me all kinds of advice. I feel like I’ve started a new chapter in my life and I am not scared of intimidated.
Most people, when I told them, were shocked because I am only 23 and I love to go out and have fun and live life.
They all immediately said, “well, that’s going to have to stop.” I
 don’t think so.
I mean, I know it will have to change, and be toned down. But just because I am going to be a mother doesn’t mean that I have to stop enjoying life. The way they act, its like the world stops spinning, and life ceases to exist beyond the family home. Wtf?
And even though I am young, I always felt like I was ready to settle down much earlier on in life. Its not going to be a sacrifice; I don’t intend to make myself a martyr for the sake of my child. Life is about maintaining a balance. I plan to be the best mother I can possibly be, but also the best partner I can be to my boyfriend, a daughter to my parents, a sister to my sissy and a loyal friend to my friends. There are so many dimensions to me that I am not going to shut everything down just because I am having a baby.
If I did, I think I would go mad.
Any whooooo -Â ta ta for now 
