Could I be Getting Closer to the Light…
For the last 6 months, time seems to be drifting by…
There have been the legal battles to get my divorce finalized and to find my ex and have him start paying his share of the child support. I find it interesting that the government has no problem coming after me when I owe THEM money but because my ex owes ME money they can’t seem to keep track of him. A simple stop on Facebook and I was able to find him, I wonder why it’s been so hard for them?
The beginning of the school year had my Smart phone plum full of appointments. One child needed to be assessed for speech. Another had faced challenges last year, so this year all of her educators (teacher, aide,…) and I met to work on her IPP for this year. Let’s not forget that they are all in counseling to help them work through all of the emotions from having their father walk out on them, leading me to another appointment to discuss what has(n’t) happened over the summer in regards to that.
My daughter’s allergies are more controlled now then they were in the Spring. We still have bad days, but they are becoming fewer. Her asthma is well under control and we’re at the point where her inhaler isn’t needed.
I’m feeling a lot better and my stress level has gone way down. I think I have let go of a lot of anger for my ex. I’ve come to the realization that I WILL be raising the kids on my own with no support from him (be it financially or custody wise). He’s made no attempt to contact the kids and that’s finally OK with me. It took me a long time but I think the kids and I have made huge strides without him. Everyone around us has commented on how much better the kids are doing and that was my main goal. I wanted them to move on and be happy.
So perhaps time does heal all. It’s been a long journey, with many obstacles along the way. There have been times when it seemed like nobody could help me find the answers that I needed, but by staying strong and never giving up, taking it one day at a time, things have gotten better. I’ve learned that if I set my mind to it I can accomplish anything.
As for how well I am really doing, well you’ll just have to stay tuned…. 
October 1st, 2008 at 4:02 pm
I had been thinking abut you guys a lot and wondering how things were going. It’s good to hear that the kids are doing better, and that your stress levels are going down. I know from experience as a single mom myself for 5 years, it does get easier and the resent does go away, now I only had one at the time, so my hat goes off to you with five!! Keep on keepin’ on!