The Cat Made Me Do It

For as long as I can remember I have always had a cat as a best friend. They’ve always been there for me. Always made me feel better when I was down, and helped me get through anything. My 10 year old, peachy colored cat has no idea how much he has helped me through.

When I was 21 I married the man I thought was going to be the one I was going to be with forever. I was wrong. 7 years later, a move, and a lot of tears shed, I am now officially a single mom to 5.

It was very scary at first. I had been a stay at home mom since my oldest was born 9 years ago. Money was always there when I needed it. Now all of a sudden I was the sole decision maker. How was I going to have the strength to raise 5 kids? Where was I going to find the support I needed? And who was going to be there to tell me that things are going to be OK?

Who knew that a marriage was so easy to get into yet so difficult to get OUT of! My ex walked away from everything. He managed to sign all bills over to me without my knowledge. He quit supporting the kids. Faded into the night, leaving all ties to me in my hands, for me to clean up. The lawyers will have fun with that.

It took me some time to get over the pain. I knew it was over many years ago, but I never could have imagined that it would turn out like this. It’s been months now and we still can’t get past the hate for each other. He has no respect for me and I have yet to accept that he so easily left without putting up a fight. Despite the fact that we didn’t get along how could he just walk away from the kids?

Sadly the kids were stuck in the middle. They knew there was problems. It wasn’t hard. The fighting and anger was so obvious. It began to reflect in school work, their own personalities, and how they behaved day-to-day. It’s taken months and many hours of counseling but the kids are doing so much better now. The house is a much calmer place.

So, it’s taken me some time, but I am holding my head high. When my ex was running, I stayed behind. I took the steps to get my feet back on the ground. It hasn’t been easy, some days really attacked, but I was determined to make it through. I’ve made some great friends along the way. Lost a few. They say it’s the hard times that really show you what you are made of and I think I have discovered a whole new me.  I’m ready for a new start

My cat never liked my ex. They never got along. I guess I should have listened a little bit harder to him

THE CAT MADE ME DO IT!!!

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