Oh, what should I write today?
Thursday, April 16th, 2009Yes, what should I write today?
I could try to write a thought on spring and changes in our lives that we want to make the change, but people tell us we are fools? And everyone would wonder,”what’s wrong? Talk to us. We are here to listen”.
For starters, my BIL turn the tables on us. Instead of being a good brother and family friend to us, he became evil, by criticizing that DH should be working instead of taking extended parental leave. He didn’t want to hear the whole situation on layoffs from us at all. He didn’t want to believe us at all. He played mind games on us as well on the other siblings so no one wanted to listen to what DH had to say at all. Even worse, BIL stated on Facebook that our boys will grow to be “jerks like their dad”. I cried on that and my parents were horrified upon reading this. Life is very cruel.
I wrote a long letter to my oldest SIL, telling her how I felt of why DH couldn’t be treated nicely and positively in the family, as well as invite us to family gatherings since MIL passed away. I found a box to put the Mickey Mouse doll and the T-shirt (they were not used at all) that she sent for my boys, and the reason I am sending it back is because after finding out that the SILs chose not to speak to us after MIL passed away, why did she sent the Disney souveniers to my boys in the first place? Hm,….I put a little note that the souveniers can be passed down to another SIL, who is due later this year (strange, she told me that in the past that she didn’t like kids and chose not to have kids at all,…………).
This past week, my DS1 and I have been let down by other moms and kids at Preschool PlayLand and this broke my heart. Lately, one supervisor was punishing DS1 for being rough, while she let the other kids be rough and aggressive on others (???) and I could not believe my eyes and ears what she did. And later on, for the Easter Party, the supervisor and the rest of the moms saw us coming in to join in the party and they turn their faces from us and ignored us. To me, I just don’t understand. What did I do to offend them? And now, we felt we are not WELCOME to PlayLand at all. I had made a complaint to the head co-ordinator, but he didn’t believe me at all, saying that the supervisor was doing her job. So now what? Where am I going to take my son to play with other kids?
Recently, we were not so sure about our life here in the city we thought “promising and booming”, because of layoffs and attitude problems. I know people will tell me things will work out better, but the question is not just “When?” by “Why us? what did we do wrong to you?”
I guess I have to wait for the last of the inheritance from my uncle’s estate so DH can plan the job search and us planning the move.


