A normal, boring woman as usual……

But first,……….I had a real day in which I don’t know if it’s frustrating, confusing or just crazy and don’t know what I should be doing or what?

 During the middle of the night, I got a 5-month-old kitten, Roxy, deciding that she didn’t want to sleep in the living room with 9-yr-old Lucky, the ol’ grouchy cat, that she had to purr LOUD in my ear (makes you wonder about my hearing loss and not wearing a hearing aid to bed) and I had to push her off the bed.  Then minutes later, she noticed that DH’s feet was moving around under the covers so she jumped at his feet and took a big BITE that DH had to push her off the bed.  Not fun.  Tonight, we will close the door on her so she can whine and hang out at the couch with Lucky.

This morning, DS was being in his stage of “Terrible Two’s” by grabbing me off the couch to get snacks that were to be left for afternoon snacking only, and I asked if he wanted fruit, and he freaked out.  Even worse, he freaked out over the fact that we have NO chocolate syrup for his milk.  Ugh, I never give him that much all the time as I call it a “treat”.  So when I was looking in the fridge for lunch ideas, I decided I was going to make pork rice stir-fry using the leftover rice from last night with pork steak and lots of vegetables.  The time DH came home for lunch, he grumbled about me making stir-fry  “ALL the TIME” and I cannot remember the last time I made stir fry ( was it two weekends ago?) and I nearly wanted to scream.  He apologized for making me mad over the stir-fry as he had a bad morning (he had a horrific headache and learned that his co-workers in the paint line does not want to work Friday for overtime work so that was pretty much for over time pay he anticipated for,…………next week, he says, next week,………).  Sigh.

 So after DH went back to work and putting DS down for his nap, I did the dishes quickly, rode on the stationary bike for 20 minutes (as long the baby doesn’t kick me hard for going over 20 minutes), then pulled out my sewing machine to try and finish the soft blocks for my nephew.  Still frustrated with tension setting for the applique stitch.  Oh well.  And Mom was already at work when I tried to call her.

 Then comes supper time.  I decided to try something new called Ravioli ‘n’ Sausage bake (from Woman’s World). Well, it was good, but I had a feeling that it is not an approval to keep the recipe in my gold recipe journal at all.  DS loves the ravioli, but not the italian sausage. DH likes it, but didn’t ask for seconds at all.  Later that night, he craved for oriental noodles.  Never mind, I will have the casserole for lunch tomorrow.

And tonight, I can hear ( with my hearing aid turned up) Roxy howling to get in our room as I type this blog.  She is definately not sleeing with us tonight.  She can go sleep on the couch with Lucky.

 I hope tomorrow will go better.

But at least I got alot of things on my mind that I need to write it out.

Thursday, October 23:

I wake up in shock to realize that it has been 4 years since DH asked me out in a bar in FRONT of my dad.  And he wasn’t embarrassed to do it, since he does crazy things to make it right.  I just don’t know how I put up with him the last four years of our relationship (two years of our marriage) but I guess I just CANNOT live without him at all, no matter of good times and bad times.  There are times we fight and threaten to break up, but there are times DH fought it out to make our relationship work (he made it very different from what he went through his rough childhood, seeing a lot of abuse in the family that he did not want to risk this at all).  Well, four years later, we survived our challenges of being together.  We did it for love, despite criticism from his estranged family members who don’t understand the real meaning of marriage and family values at all.

Today (October 25)

Since I am nearing the Third trimester, there is something that I could not quit there or put it down at all, and what is it?  Sewing and crafting.  I was surprised that I actually got back to doing them as I need to do something to de-stress myself beside setting aside 20 minutes a day on the stationary bike and having a veggie wrap for afternoon snack ( have not gotten sick of it but I can always make something new to it ).  So far, I made two finished pieces of baby blankets in which I need to get a matching backings for them, and as a last minute project for today’s baby shower, a personalized soft baby block set in which it was a hit for moms to see (even the baby girl reacted to the softness of the toy with a smile).  If I could use up all of the craft clutter, I will be fine, despite at any cost to clean out and not carry the weight around.