Until Wednesday rolls around,…………..
I just have to wait around and take care of myself until I see my hometown family doctor. And I hope I don’t go through the same ordeal like I did last October. I have posted about my retained miscarriage in the Pregnancy loss (somewhere if I can find it!) but I am hoping for the best since DH and I just want another and LAST one so the family is complete. So I will keep my fingers crossed for the best.
I don’t want to tell alot of people I know, including my parents and FIL, just yet until later when I find out if it’s viable or not. But even if I am pregnant, I still do not want to announce it AT ALL to people that have been very negative to us (SILs, my sister, and those who don’t like kids, and those who complain about the cost of raising kids:S) So why my DH and I feel that way about not announcing to those people at all? For starters, when I first found out I was pregnant with DS, instead of getting a congratulations from them, we were cut down for several ridiculous reasons:
-”Pregnant? So, when are you getting rid of the cat? And when are you going to get rid of the fish?”(my sister)
-”Pregnant? And my brother is going to be a father? Yeah right, as if he is going to teach this kid to drink beer at a young age.” (SIL)
-”Pregnant? Well, you better starting for someone else to care for your child, because it is HARD work, and you rather be working your career than to be a mom”. (the other SIL)
-An ex-friend of DH looked at him and said”You knocked her up? Oh great, that means I have to pay more taxes to put towards CTB cheques for you guys to go and spend on luxurious toys that are crappy and useless?”
-Another ex-friend of DH got mad at him for not being careful with birth control. He told him that DH should be be doing more time with his buddies than to be with the baby and I.
-And lastly, people accused me of getting pregnant to catch up with other women with kids to “fit in the group”. To me, I never liked these moms from the hometown, anyways, because their snobbish, nose-upper personalities are still the same.
Sounds pretty cruel? Well, these comments are coming from a hometown that is pretty CLOSE-minded and open-discriminated to hurt other people verbally and emotionally. But here in the city, people we talk to are respectful and open-minded to issues. So glad to be away from the small town life for the better.
But, for now, the waiting for appointment continues,………………..
