All4them’s Crazy World!

So before I BLOG (thats such a strange word) about our first date… I thought I’d clear something up…

The reason I have and “official” and “not so official” version is NOT because I am ashamed of meeting Jimmy online… It’s because I don’t want anyone to think that I was actually “looking” for someone when it had only “really” been three weeks since I’d broken up with my previous boyfriend…

I honestly and truthfully had no intention of dating and was on date.ca out of sheer boredom.

I wasn’t interested in dating again.. yet alone finding someone like Jimmy.

It was odd - but finally getting the courage to call things off with the previous boyfriend gave me a strength I hadn’t felt in a long time. I gained my independence back… I wasn’t willing to go back down the relationship road again…. which is a part of the reason I fought Jimmy so hard on talking on the phone or meeting in person.

I had this new understanding of what I did and did not want out of life…

sorry.

Im rambling again.

Anyway - the point to this late night blog… (aside from the fact that I do not want to go to bed because I am afraid I will sleep walk) is to say that I am not actually concerned about the how - but rather that someone would think I was on date.ca “LOOKING”…

Do you know what I mean?

I told my friends the “truth” because they know me and know I was not looking.

I know.. I know.. Who cares….

:s

But if you look at the “official” version… the basics are there.. Jimmy was interested because he fell for my smile.

And we actually “talked” over the net….