Do you ever notice that when you think you have it all figured out - life pop’s out of no where with a taunting - not so fast, I’m not done with you yet!
It’s recently been brought to the attention of both Gord and I, that certain things we have observed with Myles as being *quirks* may actually be something more. Yes, I know what this *condition* is, yes I have read and re-read about it, but as true person in denial I can barely even bring myself to say the name let alone type it out.
The hardest part of all of this is the what if’s. What if he is in fact diagnosed? What does that mean? What else could possibly happen to me? Wait, it this happening to me?? Isn’t this actually happening to Myles?
Do we tell our families and drag them into the land of worry, or do we wait until we know for sure?
What if he’s fine?? What If all this worrying and freaking out is for nothing? What if we put him through all this to ease our own fears and insecurities?
Myles is set for his 3 year check up with our family doctor on Monday, at which point we will express our concerns and hope for a referral. In the meantime I’ve been in contact with the local organization who specializes in Myles suspected diagnoses. I was a little taken aback when she sweetly told me they would be happy to do an evaluation in August or September? Huh? I’m beside myself - now!
I know, I’m lucky to have a such a *quick* time frame. Why don’t I feel lucky? Why does it feel like it’s centuries away?
Why is the scariest feeling of all not knowing what is going on with your child??
It is the trouble that never comes that causes the loss of sleep. - Chas. Austin Bates
May 21st, 2008 at 9:18 pm
oh mandi…that’s an awful long time to wait…((((HUGS))))