King For A Day…………

LOL……………I know I know but hey with this impending monthly friend it just reminds me that being a woman sucks sometimes.

I have to say I’m struggling this month with ‘Auntie Flo’ as she seems to have changed her arrival time yet again this month.  So after going to the drug store twice now to get pregnancy tests to make sure I wasn’t preggers I sit here and wonder when she will show herself this month.

This is the third month in a row that she has been late………………….and I get my hopes up thinking that yes I am preggers……obviously cause I am  never late, like clock work since I started my period some 17 years ago……so I’m thinking yay another baby and it would definately be our last this time………………..although DH is a bit weary on another baby at this point but he would welcome it all the same but would be stressed to the high heavens because of it (financially of course)!!!  See the thing about that is I want another child but DH doesn’t because of the fact we would find it tight as far as money goes as we would have to get a new car and other baby items that we have but our son is still using them and would still be using them when the baby would arrive if I was preggers and I do understand that but I’ve always wanted four kids…………….so I suck it up and agree with him and be happy with the family that I got and that’s it but now with ‘Auntie’ playing peek-a-boo she’s really toying with my emotions and how much I want another child.

DH has seen a doctor about getting the ‘ole snip snip’ done…………lol…………….so it’s only a matter of time before they call him with a date and time for the impending doom not being able to have any more children!!!  Boo Hoo…………………so having another child has a time limit right now and we don’t know the expiry date…………….DH says he’ll cancel the appt but I’m still struggling about that and I’m not sure about it…………………I want to be happy but I want the rest of my family and DH happy as well……………..I guess pondering it more would be a good idea……………….I’m so tore about this family decision………………aarrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!

I know I understand where he is coming from but I just find it sooooooooooo difficult to accept especially when ‘Auntie’ is five days late and playing mind games with me……………….I swear I’ve had every symptom of pregnancy the past two months and then BAM ‘Auntie’ shows up……………..and this month the same way………………..seriously I was thinking if I didn’t start today that I am pregnant and the other tests were just taken too early but nope late this morning BAM she reers her ugly head……………………….so therefore I hate being a woman today…………………I’d love being a woman if I was pregnant though………………lol

But now I’m worried why all of a sudden is ‘Auntie’ taking a longer vacation than usual………………is it because I’m heading towards getting older and another impending doom - menopause……………I know I have quite a few years before that happens yet but what if I’m one of those women that get in their thirties……………I would be crushed………and poor hubby…lol……….but I’m going to stay strong and keep in mind that I am getting older and I’ve had three children already so things were bound to change sometime right??? 

So now my cycle is no longer 28 days but 33 days……………….guess that means I have a longer time to have fun with hubby………..lol  :blush: