Blending my life

That’s right. I woke up this morning at 4 am. I came downstairs, started my coffee (I’m totally addicted) and turned on my computer.

I sat down and thought about my best friend asleep upstairs. How much he has changed my life and how totally in love I am with him. Our blended life and how we got here.

I met my husband in real life in September of 2001, shortly after 9/11. We had been talking online for a few weeks….. Maybe I should back up a bit and explain how we “met” online first.

Less than a year before I met my husband my first marriage ended, and my new life began. I was a struggling single mom with a new house to build on my own, no car, no job and no way to get out and meet people. Life was very hard both emotionally and financially. All I knew at that time was that I was free, and loving every min of raising my kids. One of my best friends was newly single as well, although her being single was due to her husband dying suddenly at work.

My friend Teresa invited me over for a weekend to give me a break. We had a wonderful weekend together. During that weekend she signed me up to a singles site online. I had no interest and no time for that, but she insisted that I needed to have a life outside of my kids and my house. I very reluctantly agreed. After getting home I totally forgot about signing up and went on with my life. I forgot that is till I logged on to my computer and realized there were over 100 responses to my “profile”. OMG, what had I done? I didn’t have time for this. I had responses from everyone. Some claimed to be professional hockey players, some were normal guys and one claimed to be a prince from some country in Africa. I was overwhelmed! I became very good of laughing and hitting the delete button on my computer. I really had no time and was not interested in the least. However I did get a huge laugh out of it all and didn’t delete my profile. I was busy finishing the house I built, and meeting with lawyers and going to court etc. My life was full!

Time went on and the responses became less and less. So much so that sometimes I actually opened some of the emails and read them. Sometimes I responded with an I’m sorry but I’m not really interested, but most of the time I simply deleted them. Then after selling my house and moving into a small two bedroom basement apt I open an email that would change my life forever. I don’t remember what Rolf (my husband) wrote. I do know it was something very simple and very short. I opened the email because his nickname online was 1Boss and it made me laugh to think that he was that arrogant. I made a short response to him and when I received a second email from him I was very confused. Here was a guy that lived maybe 40 min away from me and he didn’t sound nearly as arrogant as I thought. We started emailing each other every day, most days it was twice a day. We both decided to be completely upfront with each other about our pasts, our hopes and dreams and our deepest hurts and fears. Finally after a couple of weeks of emailing I asked him to meet me in real life. At this point in time I was only thinking of friendship. I still didn’t feel like I was ready to start a relationship. I thought I was going to be meeting a friend, and honestly that was all I was looking for. We set up a day and time that worked for both of us and then the nerves set in!

My daughter is moving around upstairs so I’m going to end this now. Next time I’ll let you know all about our “first” date. Take care .