I welcome 2009 with an open arms but with uncertainty. Although I am certain that I can survive it, I am uncertain what the year will bring.

The economic outlook scares me. It’s going to be the year of uncertainty for sure. But I am going to give it my very best and try to calm and relax.

My home business is looking good and my family are doing well. However, the plan vacations might have to wait or it might not. The plan home renovations might have to wait or it might not. I am going to cut down heavily on our spending.

Well, went out shopping today. I thought I’d better get a move on it before it gets bad.

Decided to go check out Yorkdale Mall in Toronto. Most of the mall where I live are boring so I figured i’d take a day off from my home based work and visit Yorkdale.

It was the biggest mistake I’ve made this week. As soon I got off the highway into the mall ramp, I knew it was a mistake. Although it’s only wednesday, the mall parking is full! I mean full, including the over flow area. Except the valet!

If the mall is this busy on a wednesday morning, i wonder what it’s like in the evening and weekends.

After parking the car, I was already thinking how I was going to get out of there.

It was the quickest shopping I’ve ever made. I did half of my shopping within an hour and I was out of there by 12:00! That was a record for me.

Maybe I’ll go to another mall next monday…

I swear, I will start Christmas shopping in the summer next year.

I don’t know what’s wrong, I am not feeling the Christmas spirit.

Today is the 16th of December and I haven’t done any shopping. I reluctantly bought the Christmas tree (always fresh tree) and put the decorations up but that’s it.

I haven’t made any plans for Christmas.

It seems like, I am tired of doing the same thing over and over every Christmas. Running around trying to find “gifts” and for what? This year, I don’t see the point.

I might rent a movie to inspire me, but the prospect of doing the same rushing and buying gives me a bit of sadness.

I just want to chill…

Is something wrong with me? Anyone else feeling the same?

Well, just started this blog and don’t quite know what to say.

But I am sure, I’ll gab later on… just need some time.