Afraid!
I am really afraid I won’t be able to have more kids. I don’t trust the doctor who did my section ( I am actually considering taking legal action against her) Its been 4 months and I am still not menstrating although I am solely breastfeeing my baby every 4 hours. I feel like something went wrong even though I have been up and down my hospital chart and my midwifery chart and everything looks normal. I was at my MIL this weekend and she said ” You know the doctor might have made mistakes and you won’t be able to have anymore children, the infertility rates of section women is high, and if yo can’t give my son more children he may leave you” I don’t want to say anything to my Hubby because I don’t want him to yell at his mom. So today I called the OB who did my section and told her she better fix whatever she screwed up during the section or I am taking legal action. I feel like this is never going away and I am so afraid she made mistakes and I won’t be able to have more kids. It is making me crazy, everyday I wish for my period to come but nothing I am trying everything I can to make it come. I had a massive post partum hemmorage but the Midwife didn’t think it has anything to do with the section. I am so scared all the time that I won’t be able to have anymore kids. It is eating me up inside and I cry everyday about it and it is making me crazy.I want to be happy after all I have this wonderful child who is the light of my life but I am still stuck in a rut about what happened and I keep thinking there are going to be conseqeunces and that I should have said I wanted a second opinion or I wanted to go to a better hospital. It eats me up and I can’t get rid of it.I went to the DR and he said that I can take some anti-depressants but I am breastfeeding and don’t want to risk it and he won’t give me a referral for a therapist and the support group in my home town is full. I went to another dr and she wouldn’t give it to me either.How long did it take everyone to get back to normal after cesearean and did anyone have fertility problems after?? .I really need some reassurance that everything is going to be ok.
October 27th, 2009 at 1:04 pm
Annie,
Since you’re breastfeeding it’s perfectly normal to not have your period back yet and your midwife should have assured you of that! For the record, I did not get my period back until my first 2 were 10 months old and my last two were well over a year of age. Lack of postpartum menses is not a sign of permanent infertility, some women actually still ovulate before their periods return.
It really sounds as though you may have a bit of Postpartum Depression or Anxiety. You definitely went through a traumatic experience with your DD’s birth and I think talking about it would definitely help, if you have a Health Plan it should cover taking to a therapist and you don’t need a referral. Does your employer have an EAP (Employee Assistance Program) they can often set you up with a counselor and do everything confidentially. If it comes down to it perhaps medication may help as well. There are many antidepressants that are compatible with breastfeeding If you talk with some other moms on our breastfeeding Support Message Board you’ll see many have safely taken AD’s to conquer PPD and Anxiety after their babies were born.
I’m glad you’ve been writing as suffering in silence is not good. I’m going to send this to a few friends that went through traumatic c-Sections and have them respond as well.
Good luck and I hope things get brighter soon for you!